brendon Dowley

With Julian’s and beyond Commerx 

The Julian calendar was created by the invention of January first. 1st Comes the You. So in celebration to self and in acknowledgment of deeper issue of the overly civilised soul.

But the mystics and religiosity is a pathway that left clues to the original blueprint

You don’t need to go on that journey but I do.

I need to understand why and where this path and how we got to such a level of dilution in the commercial infrastructure that holds millions of ‘first world’ citizens in a looping, extractive and modern slavery. It is not the way we are meant to live it is how it has been set up since the greedy dark powers that exist in humanities progressive and evolutionary aspect in a more mental way has gone. The very real use of farming was a good idea. Of course it was, denying basic and what has been invented doesn’t help to begin with. You have to get a clear picture of what exists to understand the map , to play with it before overcoming it. You can take on the whole thing – the world – and that might be very much where my juice comes from rebellion and creation. 

The spirit and motive of inventions therefore is something i can not say is bad, but like any technology that outsources powers it depends who’s hands its in.

We look at the base in order to understand what we have now. 

A mobile phone that was released to the public over the past 25 years worldwide wouldn’t be as powerful as the technology that exists that the military industrial complex, the powers that be, the governments could afford. The inventors invent thats not their fault but depending on what they make aka weapons , destructive devices , divisive  – this gains us a portion towards the more mathematical formulas and when a father figure gives challenge and shows you his thinking and his thinking as it then links to the divine or heavenly plane, this is where you get inspiration from – higher energetics and structural realities. 

Okay without blitzing your minds as that can go high quickly, and the promise like icarus story shows us isn’t always what we sought, we seek power and insight we seek the sun , but it resides in us. Too much sun is the Self and only that. Astrology isa map that shows a story from Self to Interpersonal to Transpersonal and beyond. A mapping of the sky that has meaning and in traditional cultures of western or Eurasian descent even Asian the human have made meaning in order to come to terms with reality here and gain more safety .The beauty is that we can improve our lives, the problem with this is that we do it at the cost of others. 

Of course we each singularly deserve a great chunk of high quality attention and time when we need it most from others, I believe every single human deserves that because every single human was once an embodied child. 

The innocence there is 100% I do not succumb to old tariffs and sacrificial belief systems created by old men who forgot themselves and created turmoil , and traded and took control and feared their own deaths. They cared, but all those that rose in the patriarchal system had their time, it is to their merit we have the world we have today, for men and women that took the stage, but mostly the powers that are now so clearly being seen for what they are and what they are not, is where my work is focusing on here for a moment.

We deserve so much more than the cheap thrills and theme park like harvesting. Theres a commercial gain everywhere, in my youth it was on TV – tele vision – the a technological machine way of communicating information and media – that media gave such rise to creative expression that could be shared – and the bankers and dollar men where the bosses that would hire the creatives.

The illusions we create especially that stem from the western system of thought I will focus on to prove i am not being racist, if i am dissenting from the civilised way of thinking its out of a very real insights that il walk us through here that will give you your next move.

My words will have a sense of action and stimulation in them, and they will have a sense of warfare, though don’t be fooled or misled my underlying motives are mixed. 

I too want a better life for myself, i want to experience things and am busted open by the sheer freedom of expression that is allowed in the marketplace. It’s a positive example of freedom , that said in the very same token, its a merit based system at least thats what i see when see an meaningful exchange.

Though the crimes speak another language – and the powers that hold onto rotten trunks just do not have time on their side, they had it, the reality is that the severance packages and pay outs the people as a whole can give to the mighty elitist ideal, is not the same as what they value, though, they they they, is a problem il tackle at here. 

If i am to stay true to a humanity vision then it must include others. 

I do believe in nature but do i need to be the hand of what i think god or the universe wants, do i give that power away and in not understanding only exercise my unrealised and unintegrated darkness. How could i be in integrity if i’m in action – Clarity requires it for many – so to see things clearly whats going on and have a educated guess at whats needed and to come to terms that i do no know much but I know some and have a sense of when i’m connected in knowing and, when i am not.

is it okay that we make mistakes at certain scales, i dare to ask do you know he very real cost of an adult who continues to hold onto a belief that they can do anything and then act upon that. “Just because you can doesn’t mean you should” is key here. It’s about higher thought and maturity , its not holding back from the actions , but it’s a last thought prior to the concurrent succession of what is to come from the cause you instill in your actions. Need not fear too much but yes also take moment to consider the ramifications.

At such a small level of power this can be held by the collective – like children. 

They just get more because they haven’t lived yet. You don’t take from them to live your own life because you were not given to, you acknowledge that your inner child exists now and they you can cultivate a relationship with them inside of your psych and body can express and reflect that in your own life. You can move towards higher levels of experience and when you face your own inner darkness gently bit by bit and not all at once – you get a greater picture of the whole that is. 

Im still a beginner in many respects but the narrative culture im choosing to participate in is not so easy to identify with. 

By nature it’s beyond one reality, it’s not as simple as that. The creator in me knows he can use all at his disposal but why create and what to create, its natural expression of creation and that phenomenal force that lives in me and all creatives. 

Such archaic problems still exist today, shows us not that we are not evolved, some of us are choosing a path that inherits more wisdom, and doesn’t need to hyper inflate and overly identify with their own egos constructions. The ego is necessary i agree, it is about protection and safety and we build it in childhood. 

De-conditioning a mind and body before the final death in this life is a very real liberator. You can have more and more fulfilment and engagement and interaction based on principles , more often when you decide to be of that. 

I know that my desire for money and all the things it can bring is healthy enough by now, it’s not a endgame – it has domains of influence that exercise and make spaces for vales to be shared and expressed and celebrated. Things that have been coordinated by an industry as entertainment, crafted and collated creations for market share.

You hear those in celebrity rings speak to their proximity and their own positions as vehicles.

But how can i sitting here on a modern laptop speak to you and meet you where you are at. 

Im not just speaking to you as a ego but rather im calling to your higher nature, but not as a pedestaling figure, im using the father archetype to give us a relationship. Im working on a healthy father relationship within my own reparenting paradigm and world. 

So. 

I deserve to be fed and nourished just as an one or any man woman child or any human being that dares to be themselves.

The puppeteering is something i love – but make no mistake like the modern clown i mean a fabric puppet on a hand that helps build story and narrative and facilitates higher learning, it can take the edge of dark times and add meaning, these days clowns in many ways do not even use much of a nose. In fact its not the makeup and costume that makes the clown – or the rediscovery of a archetype and expression in different ways helps us gain essential information – us, gain. Not only do the crowds become inhabitants of a story, not only do the ring master guide the show. The voice , the body, the spectacle is an exaggeration of a certain type of quality, not bad, not too much even, things have their time for their totality and to be seen in the light. I believe that. That said, the light could be a little more dispersed, we need these antidotes for common ailments, but dont be fooled, by a clown that is run by a business man who seeks to fill his pockets with dollars more than laughter. He be not the same as a circling community circus that values unity and interaction as a currency that is perhaps a little more pure in intention. 

So the hard bit is seeing morality played and underplayed, in my own life as much as the scenes that unfold in the world , years by years. The internet gives us wings to think and the amount of information is not too much for a human to say no to.

Where you reside and put your time is based on where attention goes energy flows.

If your seeking deeper health go outside. 

If your seeking more resources look at the system and don’t judge the currencies too early.

If your seeking belonging put yourself in places that will hold you in community and family and social meaning.

If your seeking to meet your need for attention to be seen in your achievements then who is it that needs that and if its truly so then you deserve it and i would never want to take that away from you.

The problem with a dog eat dog world concept is that it plays into a limited version of lower nature. Sure that exists, but also so too does quantum alchemy in your biology. 

DO you think the same way the less your attached to a false belief, that has even been proven as false – what then lies between you and the fact , that fact that you could not let be true, even though it is. 

We cover our eyes so that we are not part of the action, the problem lies in the trance and the the reality is transience can survive.

So when do we stand an what for, well perhaps you could ask yourself that, gently with a backbone of gradual self inquiry. 

You can love yourself through this all, you can discover all that you need within, the mining does not need to be of the earth though, mining the self is another story, the body is intricately woven together and regenerates every 7 years or so its said. So you do not have an excuse not to change. If you hold on that is you, or perhaps not what you think is you, but a controlling ideal, a limited understanding, a effect and residue of a fragmented system, that has nothing to do with you. To be true to yourself will ask of much.

To do no harm is a tall order for those who seek fame and riches without understanding we are in this together.
I do believe you can have the money and support and goods in your life, and that Having those things is part of a story of have and have not. It’s a power story, game, reality. But it’s of my belief that the world you inherited by your forefathers as you seen them biologically is not the only story at play. We can love our families and our genetics , and we can evolve them honestly for personal health and those that live in your orbit. Overflow becomes possible. Those who stand in a value system for the old codes who face adversity and scarcity are not crazed, they are the ones (i have been that) that hold a layer of truth to our systems incompleteness and reminds us that even with lofty ideals the real work is that which meets those in need. 

So, Im beginning a conversation here from my own creative life and space , it may be something that’s been addressed by others before, likely so, but the way i do it is going to be different due to my lived and rebirthing experiences in this time ive had here on earth. My own experiences of the beyond, would be where i met as a consciousness us, at a higher level, but also the bodies of form and animal and animacy is the key to life here on earth. We can not hope to live a truly meaningful life that rewards those who live here now and before and in the future without taking care of each other, and ourselves. The issue is when we see ourselves or others as the problem, yes here are problems, okay they are problems because its a system issue, and networks that are not networks but personal allegiances to a more nuclear self fulfilling narrative take hold. Lower masks of higher ideals are the cause of confusion, layers and layers of misinformation that precipitate an old story of fear. We need to see beneath the veil every now and then, likely more than you have dare to see, or willing to. Though ritual and communion, as the essential nature of seeing who we are, in ceremony, in gatherings, that do not have a figure head, but start to see multiples. Without that, we can not truly have the whole picture. If you set up a mind of aestheticism that is so surprised and wondered and awed all the time – its beautiful in a way, but also you are hardly of use, to be honest when you start to stop being surprised by the magic and phenomena you are starting to enter the collective of that and thats where our wisdom and community and resources lay in interchange. 

If you have spent your whole life studying books or the book, or the written word, looking at others images creations constructions and myths and all that you have seen from that in your imagination our imagination , the point here is how much do you take % wise of that which is ours,  how honest are you truly to yourself. And in that can you find the love in your heart and the honesty to answer all this authentically.

So im not asking you to be a saint or sinner – im asking you to go beyond that conception whilst still maintaining, and maybe its a bit immature of me at this time to bring in Christian ideals but thats where im beginning to re enter. Its a higher mind conversation i see that. If i believe then theres a lot of actions going on the will move my life and others. 

So it makes sense to pause. This is not a over ruly or outlandish thing. 

To pause and keep living.

To chop wood carry water.

To even pause from that.

To pause from the reading, the looking into.

Each of us will find our own way with this and contribute what we can.

Some more some less, some need not contribute at all in this written world.

That is equally really, equally valuable , their place as existing and acting from that, if its in accord with their intuitive patterning, and it makes collective sense we dont always need rule books. However its become very apparent to me you go into the wilderness of nature of cosmic mind and all this, that you might let go of something that actually keeps us together , your line in the sand is respected. My current is not at that , its in between and it has been for a while. I see my lean towards, the deliberation and indecision is not the major story, its the graces and time i give to contemplate. To check in with this , to look at the design areas of the fields of magic and information which does dictate what goes on after it. 

Perhaps we could listen a little more to the that which we call noise , and test our signal to see if signalling our beacons is working for us all and for our planet.

 The speed of signal is a lot higher than the needs of a watery earthern planet. 

Though the fires spread, again and again.

Awake and behold, tremble in the threat to our embodied experience with earth, in proximity, in the beautiful place that he body loves and many need. We can fly , we can launch into the sky, but can you dare to integrate that with what we already know, and not change that to suit your personal life in so far as to ruin the basis of what holds us all together, the women, the births, the deaths, the rains, the seasons, take a moment to temper your fire, every now and then especially in this year ahead. 

Your heat will increase if your listening, it just will likely it has been for a while, so what to do? Learn water, learn elements, learn your own temperate nature, that said, let go and if you are one who its their time and choice to get lit, this year ahead will surely give you that, you can lift and soar, and stride and career, you can also cheer and find ways to manage what your fire impacts. 

Sometimes , what you truly need is for your person to be celebrated and the way you choose to do that is going to be the path that sets you on fire and alive, so a little warning here, do not be like the frog in the pot who doesn’t even realise he’s being cooked alive. You are being cooked alive we all are, but see it more like magical process that is part of the nature, and that may give you some salve but also link you to many others who are experiencing suffering and luminosities and higher phenomena and deep pits, and wells. 

Mostly just go your pace , and even if that means your perceivably slower than others , or immediately transported into a whole new level trust your way, trust your actual bodies intelligence, trust your higher senses and respect your own physical body. We got this , and i understand my words are not for all. But for all those who resonate and find value in this here i want to begin to articulate something so as not to disappoint you. Ive spent many hours and posts and writings that i finish in different ways, many open ended. And right now im how to wrap this up, im deliberating again though i want ot share that this type of writing is pretty close to my heart. It is my exploration of the divine and the fact that i am sharing it does not need money to exist and have value in your life. It stands on its own and from that I do not ask any of you who value this in that way and need it in that way, to feel you need to pay. I want you to support me, to help me contribute more and more, and for those of you who have the means or are totally on board with the give and receive, pay it forwards, pay for whats good, who understand the magic of money and how its can be a momentum well I ask for you to subscribe, or look into my further works. And for those who are at the helm of a new life and transition, I want you to know you do not sell out when you are already in. If i include you each of those who have this and that it doesn’t reduce the quality of what is said here, but it may concur something you want to say or purely confirm that something inside of you is true, met and real. 

So yes pay the $7 if you want to subscribe to my writings and if not this is a more timeless piece too so I wish you well on your way, without reducing any of what you have gleaned or engaged with here today. 

May you all be well

May gifts be allowed to just be gifted 

And may we also let the wells be filled, the reciprocity be met.

I know the inherent worth in this. 

I like to participate in self-giving movements.

I dare to ask for more.

I am worth a gazillion and more, and who we can become through more and more healthy exchanges that show humanity, that speak to harder topics, that dare to rise together, and support each other to do that. Thats a world i want to live in, thats the bridge i can see myself leading with. 

So have an amazing new year – it is a Julien construction yet there are so many more overlapping points in time and meaning now that i just wish you the very best and beautiful new days ahead 

Brendon Rowley Dowley